Falling Into Place

After spending this week getting our venues, DJ, and photographer booked, I officially dub this week an absolute success! It amazes me just how smoothly everything has fallen into place and how genuine and wonderful everyone has been. I truly believe that when two people are truly meant to be together, wedding plans take care of themselves (well, almost ha-ha!). Not once have I had to go to "plan b" or adjust what I want to what can happen. It gives me confidence and hope that this process isn't going to be as scary as some make it out to be!

As our wedding plans unravel and form, I have been doing some soul searching, trying to center myself for the coming months. It is a difficult subject for me to talk about, but after being engaged once before, I look back on that dark time and want to kick myself. What I have now is true, unconditional love and, it is also something I have never experienced before. I'm sure people look at me after being engaged once before and say "wow, she is quite the mess...", and for awhile, that was a hard thing to swallow. But, as time has passed, I began to understand that everything happens for a reason; when one door closes, another door opens. I believe God has a plan for mine and Kaylin's life, never meaning to harm but only to prosper.

I will never forget the time or place Matt and I met. Setting in our English class, waiting for our teacher to arrive, I looked up and saw this handsome man standing in front of a table. However, being the extremely shy person that I am, I never even thought to introduce myself on the first day of class. As the semester went on, I found his sincere and caring personality to be so unique that on the second to last day of class, I confronted him and told him we should get together and hang out. Wow, what a leap for me to step out of my comfort zone and make such a bold move. To my surprise, he accepted my invite and at the end of that week, we had our first date. It was in the coming months that I learned what true love felt like. And, after being burned the number of times I have, it was incredibly hard to open myself up to someone again. I feel as though God was standing right there with me through it all, telling me not to be afraid, and that he would not let me fall again. While everyone around me was astounded at the fact that I was falling for someone, I was very much astounded myself. With much needed faith and prayer, I was able set the past aside and let our new love flourish.

I have never been able to feel as comfortable with anyone as I do with Matt. Through the good, bad, and ugly, he has stood by my side and honored me unlike any other man I have ever come in contact with. His sincere demeanor took me aback, and his honesty was such a refreshing trait that I had also never witnessed in a relationship. When it comes to expressing love, he gives of himself instead of material beings. I have found such a companion that I wake up everyday feeling so incredibly blessed. I feel as though my past has helped create a pathway to my future and in all honesty, I would endure my heart wrenching past relationships if it meant I could end up with the phenomenal man I am with today.

With one week of planning and preparations down, it is now that I truly feel as though we are actually making headway. Where some see planning a wedding as work, I see it as planning for the first day of the rest of your life. This is honest and truly one of the most important days of our lives, and I cannot wait for the festivities to begin.