The Final Countdown

This will officially be my last post before the big day! We have exactly two days until our wedding; I cannot believe the big day is almost here! It has been quite a ride, but I am confident all of the stress will be well worth it in the end. We are now faced with the final details which in my opinion, cause the most stress. I would be mortified if I forgot something, so the "to do lists" have now taken over. My dress is picked up from the cleaners, Matt has his tuxedo, our daughter's dress is in our possession, the decorations are delivered to the reception hall, the decorations are at the church, our bags are packed for our wedding night, etc. I am positive I left something out, but as long as I get done what needs to be, that is all that matters.
This week has definitely come with it's share of challenges; Kaylin is sick with bronchitis, and sleep at our house has been reduced to a bare minimum. Being a mom, all I want is to take her pain away and make her feel better. But, I have been forced to continue with work and focus on the tasks at hand. I feel like a bad mom for what I feel is selfish behavior, but I want her to feel better before the wedding. It's not just Matt and I that have been looking forward to this day, but Kaylin has played pretend wedding, told everyone about her dress, and tells everyone she sees that "mommy and daddy are getting married". She deserves to have fun, and I truly hope she is able to.
Aside from the sickness, there haven't been too many other bumps along the way. We've had our share of disagreements between families and a little skepticisim on whether or not some of the wedding party/guests will be here (and in a timely fashion). But, there is nothing more I can do at this point other than to hope those individuals love us enough to make our wedding day a priority. We are honored to have them in our wedding, and we are hopeful that they are honored to be a part of such a special/momentous occasion.
I have promised myself that I will keep my eye on the prize; I cannot stress at this point. I am quite positive that there will be glitches, but I refuse to let those minor glitches ruin our wedding day. As long as everyone is where they are supposed to be on time and we have everything that we need, what more can you do?
There are so very many things I am looking forward to when it comes to married life. As I set here and reflect on Matt and I's relationship, I am just astounded at how far we have come in these (what seem like) short three and a half years. We have grown so much as individuals and as a couple; I cannot wait to be his wife and continue to live our lives as Mr. and Mrs.. I believe that after everything we've endured as a couple these past three years, that God will prosper our marriage; giving us hope, love, and strength. I will say this, our relationship has encountered problems and issues that most could not even fathom. I know that these "detours" have made both of us stronger, but I am ready for some sunshine in our lives. I have no doubt in my mind that our marriage will be filled with all of the love that it can possibly be filled with. And, I believe we deserve happiness; every marriage does.
I am starting to notice an inkling of pre-wedding jitters. I am scared that there will be an issue with our wedding party being on time, or that I will forget something. I find my mind becoming more and more fogged; it is driving me absolutely bonkers. I am such an organized person, that this chaos is rubbing me the wrong way (to say the very least). I feel as though I am mentally absent and don't quite know how to handle all of these emotions right now. It hasn't helped that Matt and I have been severely sleep deprived, so I am hoping that these next two days we are able to breathe and have a peaceful nights sleep.
I have made it a point to talk to Matt about the wedding, giving him details and updates as things progress. I am fearful that his nerves are getting the best of him, and I am trying to help him understand that he has nothing to be nervous about. This is our day; all he needs to worry about is the commitment we are making to one another before God and each other. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a tad bit nervous; I am not used to being the center of attention. But, to be perfectly honest, the reality of our big day hasn't fully hit me yet. I had gone to get my hair done over our Thanksgiving break, and when my hairdresser put the veils on, I finally had my "emotional moment"; it hit me that I am getting married. Matt and I both are so caught up with work and our family, that focusing solely on the wedding would've been impossible. We are so fortunate to have had my mom as our wedding coordinator. She not only has kept things flowing smoothly, but the work she has done is just phenomenal. And, she has helped me stay grounded this past week (which I have needed a great deal). There have been times where I have missed having girl friends to talk to and converse with, but my mom has been such a magnificent support for not only myself, but for Matt as well. Planning a wedding is definitely not her "first rodeo", and she is amazing at what she does. With as scatterbrained as I have been, it has been wonderful to have someone keeping me focused and poised. Words truly cannot express how grateful I am for all of her help, love, and dedication. I constantly tell her that I am sure she is thankful she only has one child, but I know she has also enjoyed the planning and preparations.
With a little under forty eight hours until our wedding day, all I can do is hand my fears over to the good Lord and focus on my excitement. I am looking forward to sharing this day with our family and friends, and I hope they have just as much fun as we will. We are so fortunate to have such an incredible circle of people around us; we are loved  by so many.
Until next time my devoted readers!